Hunger Games. If you didn't gather that from the title, you live under a rock.
Before I start complaining, I'll just say this. I love the Hunger Games. I've read all the books multiple times. I went and saw the movie last night. I really don't have much to complain about, other than....Katniss.
Now, here's the deal. So, Katniss? She's a butthole, in my opinion. Yeah, she was trying to win. And trying to stay alive. But the way she treated Peeta doesn't sit well with me. Yes, I KNOW it's not real. But I think I can have my opinion about this....and I'm gonna share it. I love Peeta. And I certainly love Josh Hutcherson. I have been like, freakin in love with him, since Zathura. Like, forever. I think he should become LDS and we can get married and have beautiful babies. Fantasy much? ;)
Back to the book.
Notice how this book has the love triangle....and you're either a "Gale fan" or a "Peeta fan". And a lot of people don't like Katniss. What does this sound like to you?
If you said Twilight, then DING DING DING. You guessed right. There's the lovely love triangle. "Jacob fan" and "Edward fan"s. Granted, Hunger Games isn't retarded. It has a better story, and it was written better.
I hope I'm not going crazy, because I hope I'm not the only one who has seen this. And I'd hate to see Hunger Games go down the same path as Twilight. I mean, Twilight is gay. Hunger Games isn't. And I love the books. And the movie. So...maybe I'm going crazy, maybe I'm not...we'll see.
Saturday, March 31, 2012
Monday, March 26, 2012
Phobias, Shmobias
Phobias. We all have em. There are too many to count.
Now, I'm not Mr. Monk. I'm not afraid of milk, ladybugs, harmonicas, and 34523452345098 more things. BUT I do haves some phobias.
Aphephobia (Fear of being touched)
Selachophobia(Fear of sharks)
Claustrophobia(Fear of tight spaces)
Kainotophobia(Fear of change)
Gymnophobia(Fear of nudity)
Hormephobia(Fear of electric shock)
Those are basically the ones that are actually phobias. And some are worse than others, obviously.
Aphephobia kinda comes and goes. It depends on the situation and the people. A lot of people will be shocked by this. But it's not TOUCHING people, it's being TOUCHED.
Selachophobia is one of the biggest ones. It gets so bad that any picture of sharks makes me want to cry and scream and I have nightmares. It extends to me almost being afraid of anything ocean-related.
Claustrophobia isn't too bad. I'm only afraid of small spaces once I'm into them....and they have to be pretty small.
Kainotophobia is the big one. And it's the one I'll focus on. In a minute.
Gymnophobia....no comment.
Hormephobia is kinda weird. I just hate electric shock. I'm afraid of touching metal things because I dread the shock.
Ok. Kainotophobia. Change.
I hate change. In many ways. I'm afraid of it in the sense that once I realize that things aren't the same way they used to be, I freak out. I break down. I cry.
Still confused?
Ok. I'll pull out some examples.
Relationships. I have a really hard time letting go of relationships. Of any kind. This past year, a friend and I grew apart. And yeah, small friendships come and go and it's fine. But we'd been best friends for 3 years. Inseparable. Ending the friendship was my fault, and I don't regret it because we both became different people and had nothing in common. From time to time, I miss our friendship though. Ya know, I miss having a best friend that I can just turn to. I don't feel like this often though. HOWEVER, there is a summer camp that said girl and I always go to together. While discussing the travelling plans for the summer camp with my mom, I freaked out. I realized that this would be the FIRST year that she wouldn't be my roommate. I doubt she'll even want to be in my group. And this scares me. So bad. Because it means that I'll have to face a bunch of strangers BY MYSELF. And everything we routinely do together every year, I'll be doing alone. And it scares me beyond reason. I started hyperventilating when I realized this.
Example Two: I have a hard time letting go of past relationships with boys. Not in the sense that I want ten thousand boyfriends at once. So, I'm sorta in a relationship with a boy at the moment. But when I find myself drifting away from past boys, it scares me. Just knowing that they won't be there for me anymore. (I'm not the kind of girl who can't be friends after a relationship.) It scares me, and I freak out and I get kinda upset. This doesn't make me any less attached to said current boy, but I feel scared because I don't like people leaving me. Cuz it's change.
I hate moving, because it puts me in a scary new situation, because it's change.
I recently started going to a different ward in church. And it's really getting on my nerves, cuz it's different.
My little sister is turning 16 this year. And this is bugging me, because she's supposed to still be 4. Or...young. So this is a big change and it scares me. A lot.
You get the idea. Change scares me and makes me want to cry.
I know that change is just a part of life. Everyone changes, life changes, the world changes. But it scares me.
I have a friend that I've known for a little over a year now. We used to be really close. We met in October 2010. I used to say he was my best friend. He WAS my best friend for the longest time. But since the beginning of summer last year, we've both changed a lot. I try not to judge people, cuz I feel that people can make their own decisions. However, I hate how this person has changed. Most of this is because....you got it. He changed. He has changed so completely, that it stresses me out. I loose sleep over it, wondering if I could've stopped him from changing, and if we could still be close.
Change is another reason that I have NEVER been able to get into relationships with friends. If I've been friends with a guy for a long while, and they want a relationship, it is NOT gonna happen, because they are my friend, and I can't change that. Changing that would be...terrifying...
And this one is gonna seem insane to you. But if I have two friends who are in a relationship, I get REALLY upset if they break up.(If I didn't know my friends S.O. that much, it doesn't affect me.) Because it's chaaangeeeee.
Moral of this post: Change scares me almost above anything.(Sharks are scarier.)
There's nothing anyone can do about this, because change is a natural part of life. And I know this, and I know it's important. But that doesn't make it any less scary.
Now, I'm not Mr. Monk. I'm not afraid of milk, ladybugs, harmonicas, and 34523452345098 more things. BUT I do haves some phobias.
Aphephobia (Fear of being touched)
Selachophobia(Fear of sharks)
Claustrophobia(Fear of tight spaces)
Kainotophobia(Fear of change)
Gymnophobia(Fear of nudity)
Hormephobia(Fear of electric shock)
Those are basically the ones that are actually phobias. And some are worse than others, obviously.
Aphephobia kinda comes and goes. It depends on the situation and the people. A lot of people will be shocked by this. But it's not TOUCHING people, it's being TOUCHED.
Selachophobia is one of the biggest ones. It gets so bad that any picture of sharks makes me want to cry and scream and I have nightmares. It extends to me almost being afraid of anything ocean-related.
Claustrophobia isn't too bad. I'm only afraid of small spaces once I'm into them....and they have to be pretty small.
Kainotophobia is the big one. And it's the one I'll focus on. In a minute.
Gymnophobia....no comment.
Hormephobia is kinda weird. I just hate electric shock. I'm afraid of touching metal things because I dread the shock.
Ok. Kainotophobia. Change.
I hate change. In many ways. I'm afraid of it in the sense that once I realize that things aren't the same way they used to be, I freak out. I break down. I cry.
Still confused?
Ok. I'll pull out some examples.
Relationships. I have a really hard time letting go of relationships. Of any kind. This past year, a friend and I grew apart. And yeah, small friendships come and go and it's fine. But we'd been best friends for 3 years. Inseparable. Ending the friendship was my fault, and I don't regret it because we both became different people and had nothing in common. From time to time, I miss our friendship though. Ya know, I miss having a best friend that I can just turn to. I don't feel like this often though. HOWEVER, there is a summer camp that said girl and I always go to together. While discussing the travelling plans for the summer camp with my mom, I freaked out. I realized that this would be the FIRST year that she wouldn't be my roommate. I doubt she'll even want to be in my group. And this scares me. So bad. Because it means that I'll have to face a bunch of strangers BY MYSELF. And everything we routinely do together every year, I'll be doing alone. And it scares me beyond reason. I started hyperventilating when I realized this.
Example Two: I have a hard time letting go of past relationships with boys. Not in the sense that I want ten thousand boyfriends at once. So, I'm sorta in a relationship with a boy at the moment. But when I find myself drifting away from past boys, it scares me. Just knowing that they won't be there for me anymore. (I'm not the kind of girl who can't be friends after a relationship.) It scares me, and I freak out and I get kinda upset. This doesn't make me any less attached to said current boy, but I feel scared because I don't like people leaving me. Cuz it's change.
I hate moving, because it puts me in a scary new situation, because it's change.
I recently started going to a different ward in church. And it's really getting on my nerves, cuz it's different.
My little sister is turning 16 this year. And this is bugging me, because she's supposed to still be 4. Or...young. So this is a big change and it scares me. A lot.
You get the idea. Change scares me and makes me want to cry.
I know that change is just a part of life. Everyone changes, life changes, the world changes. But it scares me.
I have a friend that I've known for a little over a year now. We used to be really close. We met in October 2010. I used to say he was my best friend. He WAS my best friend for the longest time. But since the beginning of summer last year, we've both changed a lot. I try not to judge people, cuz I feel that people can make their own decisions. However, I hate how this person has changed. Most of this is because....you got it. He changed. He has changed so completely, that it stresses me out. I loose sleep over it, wondering if I could've stopped him from changing, and if we could still be close.
Change is another reason that I have NEVER been able to get into relationships with friends. If I've been friends with a guy for a long while, and they want a relationship, it is NOT gonna happen, because they are my friend, and I can't change that. Changing that would be...terrifying...
And this one is gonna seem insane to you. But if I have two friends who are in a relationship, I get REALLY upset if they break up.(If I didn't know my friends S.O. that much, it doesn't affect me.) Because it's chaaangeeeee.
Moral of this post: Change scares me almost above anything.(Sharks are scarier.)
There's nothing anyone can do about this, because change is a natural part of life. And I know this, and I know it's important. But that doesn't make it any less scary.
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