Who's to say my ankles are fat?

It seems like no matter how confident a person you are, there are always going to be those people that try to tear you down. It could be something small and insignificant. It could be something big. And for some people, the more confident, they can let that insult roll right off of them, and continue to be the wonderful people that they are, untainted.

And I'm jealous of those people.

Because I fall in a different category of people. The people that let those snide comments stick to them like gum sticks to the bottom of a picnic table. The longer those mean words are in the mind, the harder it is to remove them, just like the gum(gross analogy, I know. Bear with me).

Everyone has insecurities, small or large. If you let those insecurities hold you back, well, you'll miss out on a lot of things.

I'm one of those people that's held on to every little mindless remark. And then I let other insecurities stem off of them. Oh, I have a really dry nose? Officially obsessed with that fact.

And that's so dumb. Why should I care if I have dry skin on my nose? Why should ANYBODY care? The answer is, simply, I'm the only one that cares. On the off chance that someone even NOTICES, they're just going to dismiss it, because they're not going to care. It's a little dry skin, whatever, next observation, please. When you focus on an insecurity, you're the only one noticing. You're the only one grieving over the fact that your voice is a little bit gravelly, even though you're a girl. Seriously. You're the only one who notices.

And your insecurities? Other people find them endearing, cute, even. Sometimes those are the things people love about you? Yeah, I love that you have a gap between your teeth. Yeah, I love that you pick all your nail polish off within a day of painting your nails. Yeah, I love that your eyebrows are uneven. Yeah, I love that you can eat as much, if not more, than the average growing male. Someone out there loves those things you're beating yourself up over. So cut it out, and learn to love yourself.

That being said. I have an incredibly hard time accepting my faults. And I know I've done posts similar to this one before, so I'm sorry if this is a little bit too repetitive for you.  If you're getting annoyed, please bathe yourself in the nearest toilet. I assure you that you'll be a lot more tolerant of my ramblings after doing so.

This post is basically helping me accept my faults, my insecurities. I'm letting you guys see some of them. I'm a beautiful, worthwhile human being. I shouldn't be beating myself up over tiny, temporal flaws, but rather, loving myself the way God made me.

No hate. This was a hard post for me to write, a hard picture for me to post. I'm putting this out there for me, so I can accept myself.

And hey. I love you, random citizen.